Kelsey’s Birthday Pics

Yes I am guilty of neglecting my blog but honestly I am soo tired and yucky feeling these days that when I do get a spare moment I am either napping (which I hate wasting time but I feel better if I do) or just vegging on the couch. I need more hours in a day but then I would probably have to spend those relaxing or sleeping too heehee.

 

So once again I will break my rule on talking about my oldest on here once again. Her 11th Birthday was great. Since they were still in school we let her open 1 present (a new outfit she could wear to school that day) in the morning. That night we went to dinner at Montanas. she had her choice and wouldn’t choose so she’s lucky dad didn’t win and take her to McDonalds, heehee. He’s such a joker! Afterwards we went home and opened the rest of her presents.

 

Here is our birthday girl

 

 

 

Spongebob cards, she’s obsessed with him LOL.

Sissy’s little helper (messy faced and all!)

 

It could be the spongebob card or the mall bucks inside ;)

Typical teenage attitude talking back to dad about something…like totally LOL!

 

She had been bugging us for a skateboard since before Christmas so she finally got it.

 

 

I can’t believe how fast she’s grown up and what a beautiful girl she is!!! She is such a good sister too and I have no doubt she will be to the twins as well! We love you honey!!!

HOLY COW!!

The babies are each 3 lbs 9 ounces so just a tad over 3.5 lbs each! That means I have a total of 7 lbs of baby in here at only 30 weeks! Holy cow! How am I gonna manage to make it to 38 weeks? I really will be toppling down and/or bedridden by then! Keep in mind that I am also chasing a 13 month old around the house too. It’s definitely good that the twins are growing so well (they are measuring 31 to 32 weeks) but this definitely scares me. I could very well end up being induced at 38 weeks with 2 giant babies! Oh my! Everything in me says they won’t last that long if they are bigger but the rest of me says, not so fast…you will be waiting and waiting with these 2 like you did with Maddy. Oy!

 

Baby boy a is still head down and behaving as always, baby girl b is still the troublemaker and still breech. Cervix is still perfect at about 3.8 despite all of my braxton hicks lately so that’s good too! I’ll update again tomorrow after my OB appointment. Let’s hope everything goes as smoothly as it seemed to at the ultrasound today. :)

Maddy’s First B-Day Pics

 

Well I finally edited some pics! YAY!!! I saw on the Windows Live Writer site that you could get a plug in to just transfer photos from Facebook so I downloaded that figuring I could save myself some work and phooey it won’t work for me. I must have the wrong version of something. So here I go again uploading pics one by one, it was worth a try. ;)

 

Maddy was quite shy this night as the whole family was over at our place. She’s not usually a huge social girl anyway so it’s not surprising heehee. She did really enjoy Uncle Paul’s help opening her presents! She had warmed up to him quite a bit by the end of the night heehee.

 

My 2 BEAUTIFUL girls!!!

 

 

Kelsey helping Maddy  open a gift.

 

Maddy’s first birthday proved to be all about balls, she got big balls, little balls, a ball pit, a ball popper and she LOVED them! (We hadn’t given her any previously cuz I thought the dogs would wreck them. )

 

More balls LOL and her piano.

 

She just won’t let go of them!

 

That’s our girl! LOL!!! :)

 

Maddy LOVES books! She will go grab her favs and lock eyes with me and butt scoot over to me so I can “read” them. She never lets’ me read a full page before she starts turning the pages but it’s so dang cute! I just love watching her scoot to me book in hand!

 

Yes she even brought the balls with her outside while waiting for her cake!

 

My 2 beautiful girls again! (Sorry about the harsh light/shadows, I could have spent hours editing this one but don’t have the time.)

 

Maddy and her first pinch of birthday cake! We thought she’s go crazy but she started out tentatively LOL!

 

Still not that much of a mess…

 

 

Maddy loved these noisemakers so Sissy helped her out and entertained her with hers!

 

This little girl was definitely spoiled! And she had a great birthday!

quick ;)

 

Just a quick little note that I have an ultrasound today. Can’t wait to see these little ones! ;) Since I am feeling soooo big lately I am thinking they are probably around 3 lbs each which is typical for a singleton at 30 weeks. They have actually been measuring a bit ahead each u/s so they may even be a bit bigger than that, we’ll see. That might explain a few of my discomforts and breathlessness. Measured my belly last night and it was about 50.5 inches around, yeah you heard that right! I am officially a weeble wobble although I am not sure I won’t fall down LOL! Will be back later tonight to tell you all how the babes are doing! Wish us luck! :)

Catch up Again

Well there’s nothing like playing catch up and that seems to be all I do these days LOL! Sorry still no b-day pics, was busy on Wednesday but hopefully soon!

 

Maddy had her 1 yr checkup yesterday and it went well. Dr H said she’s doing great. She is 22 lbs, and …oops I just went to calculate her height and head in inches (vs centimeters) and ummm lets’ just say apparently the nurse didn’t get it right. My baby is apparently only 11.5 inches tall…NOT, so I guess I don’t know how tall and big her head is right now LOL. Guess I will have to measure her myself for her baby book. At least the weight is right though. LOL!

 

What else is new? Not much. I have an ultrasound on Monday and a Dr’s appt on Tuesday so it will be a busy 2 days. I can’t wait to find out how much these little ones weigh. It feels like they weigh a ton already! I also finally ordered my maternity nursing bras, yeah I’m excited about that….do you think that’s weird? I LOVE getting packages in the mail!

 

Mommy is doing ok. I am finding things getting harder and harder by the day physically and thus emotionally. But I guess that’s to be expected. Today has not really been a great day.

 

Disclaimer: If you are opposed to pregnant women ranting and raving then you may just want to click that pretty little red X in the right corner of your browser now LOL. No it’s not that bad but seeing as how just moving is getting harder even the smallish things upset me lately.

 

I haven’t been able to wear my wedding rings for sometime now, it bugs me, it REALLY REALLY bugs me. I feel naked and judged without them. (I am pretty sure that has to do with being a single mom my first pregnancy and all the comments I heard back then.) Anyway, so once again today I went to scour the mall for any fake wedding type rings in sterling silver (since I can’t wear anything but that or gold) and again no luck. :(  Since I had fat fingers BEFORE I got preggo they are really fat now and all the glamour rings etc only come in sizes 6, 7 or 8 I was told today at every store I went to. Man, nothing like makin a big fat preggo lady feel good about herself. I mean it’s not bad enough that I am growing out of all my clothes, that my belly is that of a 39 week pregnant lady at only 29, that I can’t do any housework or take care of my family properly or do much of anything really, that I am sick all the time, that I have gained way too much and half of it seems to have gone to my face, that I just want to feel normal again but you have to add this insult to injury???? Ok now I’m crying, yes very stupid but no one ever said pregnancy was easy I guess.

 

So there you have it, miracles come at a very hefty price, it’s hard to take, it’s hard to stay sane and it’s hard to feel ok about yourself. But I guess it’s the price we pay for those sweet little angels who fill our lives with joy. Maddy and Kelsey sure do and these 2 will as well, I am just trying to make it through the best I can these days when pregnancy gets to be too rough.

 

And I bet you’re thinking all of this over a ring?! LOL yes, yes…that’s exactly what it’s all about and if you’ve ever been pregnant or been close to someone who was/is then you know just how sarcastic I mean that last sentence heehee.

 

Ok enough whining, I told you to click the X. Now go ahead and click the X, I’m done for now. Maybe I will try and edit a few pics of my 2 beautiful girls to put me in a better mood. :)

29 Weeks

Seriously is that ALL??? Ugh! I am way huge already and that’s not so good this early in the game. I have visions of myself being induced at 38 weeks Jerry Springer style. Jerry Springer style? Yes Jerry Springer style, where they have to knock down a wall in the house just to get me outta here cuz I’ll be that big and it will be a big 3 ring circus! I am glad the babies seem to be growing and doing so well but it’s already getting harder and harder by the day. Have I told you my waist measures 49 inches around?

 

Since there are 2 (even though I am carrying low) it seems to be all over the place. But I definitely feel it’s lower than I’ve ever carried before. My tummy rests on my legs now and getting comfortable is a task in and of itself. I am too heavy to lean back but I can’t help but want to stretch to have more room for my belly. Fun times.

 

I know I am complaining, probably too much, probably a lot. But seriously this is so hard! Carrying twins is the hardest one so far and it’s still so early. I have mini meltdowns just because I feel sooo bad. I am tired of not being able to do much of anything and I am tired of feeling sick. (Yeah the nausea has come back some days unfortunately.) And these babies seem to think I should be eating steak and eggs for breakfast cuz it seems no matter what I eat I still feel awful afterwards.

 

Ok, enough complaining for now I guess. This oughta provide some amusement. I have a few pics for you. Here I am at 39 weeks pregnant with Maddy.

 

 

And here I am at 29 weeks with the twins

 

 

Pretty close huh? Here’s a side by side comparison. (The angles are different too which makes it look like there is more difference.)

 

 

I was carrying higher last time and no I am not actually bigger YET but I am actually pretty close and that has me scared. It’s gonna be a long 9 weeks!

 

Anyway, I am tired and need some rest. Maddy will be going to daycare Wednesday and I am so excited! I will miss her terribly but it will be nice to have a day where I can lay down all day and not have to get up every 5 minutes and wear this bog ole body out. I want the twins to come but not this early. (I can’t wait to not be pregnant although I am seriously not ready for newborn twins yet!) So on the daycare days it’s either doctors appointments or a type of bedrest prescribed by me to hopefully avoid complications in the future.

 

Ok sorry for all the preggo talk, I’m done now.

 

Disclaimer: I know these little babies are MIRACLES and I know I LOVE THEM, and I know that there are many women out there who want to and can’t get pregnant, so I am not trying to take this for granted…we all just need to vent and carrying twins has been just that much harder for me so I need to get it all out.  I would have never imagined it to be this hard. I never have been the graceful happy pregnant lady anyway LOL! ;)

Another Baby Update

Sorry for the silence. Been pretty busy lately and tired too. I had a Dr appointment this past Monday with another one of the OB’s cuz mine was on holidays and I must say I was impressed, he was very thorough and I like him a lot.

 

We talked about the ultrasound results, everything was great. We also talked about my back pain and he said that it’s from SPD (symphysis pubis dysfunction) which is quite common in pregnancy. I had it last time but it wasn’t in my back like this time. So I am going to try some massage soon to see if that helps. There was no sugar in my u.r.i.n.e. this time and my BP was perfect so that’s great news! He also talked to me a little bit about how they do twin births here. Apparently there is what they call the Case room which used to be an OR room that they now use for twin births, he said I will labor in one room and be transferred to this room to deliver. He also told me I would have a lot of people in there watching so not to worry. I told him that I had a lot in there last time so I wasn’t worried LOL. I did ask him though if there would be people monitoring me did that mean I would most likely be able to have an epidural and he said yes, YAY!! (Our hospital doesn’t usually give them, they say it’s a staffing issue cuz then they have to have someone monitoring you…well if they’re already going to be there it makes sense to give an epi if mommy wants one.) I was lucky and got one with Maddy last time because they had to regulate my contractions with oxytocin which meant a nurse had to monitor me so I was very thankful for that!

 

Anyway, that’s the latest news. I have another appointment July 14th and another ultrasound July 13th. I am pretty tired, been up way too late and been getting up too early so this mom is tuckered out. Plus I didn’t get my nap in today so that’s probably a big factor heehee. I am still hoping to get the girls’ b-day pics edited and posted but I need time and since I usually try and nap while Maddy is sleeping there just never seems to be any spare time. Hopefully I can get it done soon. :)